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Track One - Clever
Compromise
Pardon my head space, he says
Not only in passing, flashing a smile
I’m an ADD drummer with kept time and feet-swept indulgence
All limbs hit the ground running – ready to beat the miles
Only time will tell if I can recover from your clever compromise
It’s a wonder I’m still here and I’m – very much alive – very
much alive
How can you love when you won’t let anybody love you
How can you grow if you let no one nurture your soul
How can you tell me with such conviction it’ll all be alright
How can I let go if you keep holding on to me
If I’d been your girlfriend – would it still be the same
Would you see me in the spotlight – would you still praise
my name (hallelujah)
Would I be remembered fondly – just not with such high acclaim
When you give and give it’s no wonder that you – never feel
full
Letting everyone else get a piece of – what you’re living for
Maybe it’s time to stop – and leave your bags at the door –
leave ‘em at the door
How can you love when you won’t let anybody love you
How can you grow if you let no one nurture your soul
How can you tell me with such conviction it’ll all be alright
How can I let go if you keep holding on to me
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Track Two - Discarded
You broke my heart cuz yours was torn and tattered
Couldn’t give our love a chance, you couldn’t see this really
mattered
Can you sense my malcontent, in the face of this disaster
I knew that it couldn’t last – but I thought it would be after
After some time spent together
All of my power, my strength and my love
My desire to aspire to respect me
The universe sends me what I can never have
And what I can have doesn’t send me
I thought it was real – but it was just a façade
Another failed attempt – of which I was robbed
I spun a dream of love – and textbook romance
But I awoke, I awoke in the light – and in the absence
I’m so tired of waking up in last night’s makeup
Where is my power, my strength and my love
My desire to aspire to protect me
The universe sends me what I can never have
And what I can have doesn’t send me
Why do we feel so incomplete
In the face of this void
Then swoon when they croon though nothing lasts forever
I’ll take this little piece of love and lock it up, it’s mine
to treasure
All of my power, my strength and my love
My desire to aspire to respect me
The universe sends me what I can never have
And what I can have doesn't send me
Why don’t I deserve special love
Why doesn’t love respect me
The universe sends me what I can never have
And what I can have doesn’t send me
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Track Three - Closer
to the Surface
Are lucid dreams more real and true than those that fade
Like filament burning into obscurity
When I’m alone, on the road, feeling vulnerable
Does sleep elude as a safety mode
Is it just my mind over-working after a night of pushing my
soul to perform
Seems so real – fitting with reality – but only until a commotion
stirs my mind
Closer to the surface again – But the line is so fine
In the mind, in the dark, in the waking sleep of realization
That one side works – while the other side rests
Are lucid dreams more real and true than those that fade
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Track Four - Long
Winter
I was cold and alone – in the winter of just enough
Happy but scared and needing a change
Then finding you here – a diamond strong & tough
A new world unfolding right before my eyes – A new world
Thank you, my darling – for being my jewel
For leading me away from the bitter, bitter cold
I needed your warmth and your love and your kindness
I needed your touch and your way and your sweet caress
It’s been a very, very long winter – It’s been such a long
winter
You warmed my bones – when the snow fell at home
Showed me things that I’ve never seen
You know, the snow doesn’t stay too pretty – not in the big,
big city
But the sand and the surf and the ocean keeps me clean – keeps
me clean
Thank you, my darling – for being my jewel
For leading me away from the bitter, bitter cold
I needed your warmth and your love and your kindness
I needed your touch and your way and your sweet caress
It’s been a very, very long winter – It’s been such a long
winter
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Track Five - Prove
Me Right
It’s that kind of day when brown sugar makes it all okay
I woke up sore and tired, but now I’m feelin’ fine
(Life can be hard but I’m learning all the time)
Singin’ a tune and moving on down the line
Change my mind – change my life
I can do it now, I will prove me right
I come from a long line of fighters, but now
I need some help just to make me lighter, I am
Heavy with uncertainty and I need a little peace in my mind
I’m a north side city kid making my way – through this wilderness
I’m young but old with things on my mind
Steadily I walk the path taking in what I can find
(From the world around me, all I can find)
I know it’s hard but I know there’s more for me
And now I’ll have the inner strength to – fortify me
Change my mind – change my life
I can do it now, I will – prove me right
I come from a long line of fighters, but now
I need someone just to help make me lighter, I am
Heavy with uncertainty and I need a little peace in my mind
And sometimes all I can see is darkness
It seems there is no light in my life
But I must crash through the silence
Reach my hand out to the light
Change my mind – change my life
I can do it now, I will – prove me right
I come from a long line of fighters, but now
I need someone just to help make me lighter, I am
Heavy with uncertainty and I need a little peace in my mind
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Track Six - Bursting
Water
Remember that time we were gonna move to New York?
We hadn’t been around for years
But still you were willing and ready and steady and rarin’
for big city
And then Chicago eventually – beckoned us home
Every time I turn around
There you are in love abound
Sometimes tears collapse in laughter, well
Bursting water makes the world go round
Remember that time that we sang a duet?
So many times before and after and in between
Recording in basements – Performing in pajamas
In living room theatres – and beach front stages
Every time I turn around
There you are in love abound
Sometimes tears collapse in laughter, well
Bursting water makes the world go round
Makes the world go round
Remember when we found out?
Always together that was, never in doubt
And then we pour another cocktail – Laughing so hard we almost
fell down
Catch the bus on Ashland and ride it ALL THE WAY TO HELL AND
BACK
Every time I turn around
There you are in love abound
Sometimes tears collapse in laughter, well
Bursting water makes the world go round
Every time I turn around
You wrap me up in love abound
Sometimes tears collapse in laughter
Bursting water makes the world go round
Makes the world go round
Makes the world go round
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Track Seven - Now
is Then
There’s you – there is me
There is karma – we all share
Without hatred – there can be no hate
There is love
There’s no color – born with shame
There’s no reason for the conflict we create
There’s no genius in this lyric – only inside my pen
There is now – tell me when – now is then
There’s you – there is me
There is beauty within
Show me how – tell me when
There is now – there is then
Now is then
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Track Eight - Wasn’t
Her Time
When Jane went out walkin – camping underneath the stars
Never knowing what would happen – or just how lucky we are
She found herself alone – in mother nature’s wrath
Just a few feet from dying – barely out of that tree’s path
But it wasn’t her time – that’s what the woman said
No, it wasn’t her time – you’re not supposed to be dead
When Debbie reconnected – with her high school sweetheart
She swore that she felt stabs of love in her chest
But when she was whisked away in an ambulance
It turns out that doctor knows best
But it wasn’t her time – with her face burning red
No, it wasn’t her time – you’re not supposed to be dead
When Kamelia ran shivering – into the snow-covered road
She was trying to get warm – she had forgotten her coat
But she misjudged the car – it was comin’ way too fast
She rolled up the windshied – in an icy blast
But it wasn’t her time – with a red gash on her head
No, it wasn’t her time – you’re not supposed to be dead
No, it wasn’t her time – that’s what the woman said
It wasn’t her time – you’re not supposed to be dead
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Track Nine - I
Don’t Really Know You
It’s kinda cold tonight
The kind of night where I want you to hold me tight
But you’re so far away and I don’t even know your name
Oh, won’t you take me away
From all this pain and this running away
When all I want to do is stay right here but oh well, I don’t
really know you
Ultimately in this life everything ends in heartache
No matter what he does or what she says, we only have this
finite line of time
Sometimes you push away, when that’s not what you mean
But such is life on this balmy ball, well
Love is refracted like life, what you see finally comes from
the angle at which you feel
It’s not what I expected and it’s not what I thought I wanted
But to get what you need, even for a moment, it’s just what
I thought I could have
And for that moment it’s a prism in time
There’s a rainbow, intangible & fleeting but good
Why can’t we just see it and believe it - Oh yeah
Even just for that moment
We spend our lives spinning around, pretending to be who we’re
supposed to be
But each day brings a new color, a new sense of beginnings & endings
all over again
Of how it fits and where it lies
Of what it says and what it feels and what it does to survive
When all I want is to stay right here, but I can’t
Maybe I haven’t met you yet
Maybe, baby, I’m still searching for you, dear
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Track Ten - Another
Sign of Life
I don’t know what I’m looking for
Which makes it very hard to find
All this new information sneaking up from behind
And I’m just waiting for another sign of life
How could I have been so blind
I should’ve known, I should’ve known all the time
But I was oblivious to all the signs
The picture, the charts, the always on my mind
I played it all wrong
Too close, but not attached at all
My heart is still bruised from the last time I tried
Now I’m just waiting for another sign-
I’m just waiting for another sign-
I’m just waiting for another sign of life
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Track Eleven - Christain Church
I’m sittin’ outside
On the steps of the Christain Church
Summer’s nigh
Nostalgia warms, it almost hurts
You’re gonna walk on by
And leave me all behind
For one life
The springtime sun, moving west the early warm, well it
It feels so good
Touching my face with his hand
Like I wish you would
You’re gonna let me pass
It all moves too fast
For one life
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Track Twelve - My Own Hand
Originally released on Acoustic Chicago, Stonecutter Records (c) 2007
I used to feel full of grace – Even lucky in embrace
Now I don't seem to know – How to take your hello
Once it was easy – no matter how far I'd gone astray
But now the effort shakes my will – I can't stand it and still – I have to know
Are you gonna ask me to stay – Do I have to ask if I may
Maybe I should just stay away – Knowing not what my heart wants
So you push me away - I can't stand here today
I know that I should stay away – I'm still holding my own hand
Well, I don't want to ask – But I really want to know
If all of this is just for show – Do you really seem that bad for me
Or just too good, as the case may be
I feel something in this somebody – who kinda gets me, in a way
But in the battle for what's right – Will you see me in a light
That makes you hesitate
Are you gonna ask me to stay – Do I have to ask if I may
Maybe I should just stay away – Knowing not what my heart wants
So you push me away - I can't stand here today
I know that I should stay away – I'm still holding my own hand
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